A Rather Large Problem ;; Alexis

[Alexis P. Redfield]

Alexis was starting to feel a bit dead on her feet but she was determined not to ruin their night by falling asleep. Sleep could wait, it could! Suddenly Alex felt like she was trying to reassure herself that more then anything. She managed some sort of small smile when Adam exited the building and walked over to her with the food. Part of her was starving so she couldn’t wait to get back to her place. Alex smiled and nodded reassuringly, deciding not to tell him how tired she was.

“Yeah I’m good.”

The car ride home was simple and quick and almost a bit too quiet. It wasn’t that she didn’t feel like talking, she just didn’t know what to really say. Green eyes stole a glance at Adam’s pocket and she wondered how many missed text messages she’d have. Suddenly Alex was extremely thankful Adam spoke when he did and his words made her laugh a little.

“That doesn’t surprise me in the least. You probably burned all that food off working out. Nothing like a good old greasy bacon cheeseburger to gain all that back.”

Lex winked at him playfully. She was picking at him, but it helped her think about something else other then how tired she was. As soon as they stopped she grabbed the food from the back seat and headed towards her apartment. Part of her was a little hesitant. Alexis almost expected another note to be tucked neatly in between the door and its frame. When there was nothing she visibly relaxed. She had to stop psyching herself out. Unlocking her door and leaving it open for Adam; she entered and sat the food down on the coffee table in front of her couch. Lex fell back onto the couch and almost moaned at how comfortable it was.

“Hey Adam, Can we make a deal? I give you amazing sex tomorrow but tonight we just relax and maybe… I don’t know... You know what? Never mind, that sounded a lot less stupid in my head.”

What the hell had she been about to say? And maybe talk? Shaking her head, Lex opened the box that held her food and started picking at it, ignoring the blush that rose to her cheeks. Alexis chalked it up to being just over exhausted. Little sleep had been gained since her ex had started contacting her. Suddenly, she found she wasn’t all that hungry. Her next words came out a little more sarcastic then usual for her.

“Ignore me, I’m mentally retarded.”

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She was acting a little weird at this very moment but he figured she was just tired, maybe he'd try and make her feel more secure somehow. "I can't get fat," he laughed, rubbing his stomach. "If I get too fat I can't chase those kids at work." He shook his head a little while he waited for the light to turn. As soon as they pulled up to her apartment complex he parked the car, getting out. She beat him into the apartment so he figured she was expecting her ex to have left a note for her or to actually be there. The guy was absolutely crazy, and the more Adam thought about it the more he wanted to actually hurt the guy. He just prayed her ex never showed up while Adam was there, otherwise he'd be in real trouble then.

Sighing as he walked in, he shut and locked the door before setting his stuff and her phone on the counter. "We don't have to have sex, Lex," he chuckled with a shake of his head, staring at her for a minute. "You're absolutely exhausted. If you fall asleep you fall asleep. There's always tomorrow morning, special one." His little quip was in response to her retarded comment, knowing she'd at least get his sarcasm. He dug into his burger and fries, too hungry to really notice she was just picking at her food. When he did, though, he didn't say anything since he didn't want to start anything. Shaking his head a bit, he took in a deep breath and gathered his thoughts. "Lex, he can't hurt you. And you can't keep losing sleep over it all." Adam looked over at her quietly, hoping she wasn't going to get mad at him for mentioning the situation again.

It was obvious she was losing sleep, she was exhausted right now and over the past week or so he had noticed she wasn't all there during the day. There had to be some way that Adam could help her sleep at night, whether it was spending multiple nights with her or having her stay at his apartment where it was much more secure. He wouldn't be asking her to live with him, just offering the idea of her staying with him until she felt a bit more safe in her surroundings. He kept eating quietly while he waited for her response, not wanting to keep pressuring her.

[Alexis P. Redfield]

His little snarky comment made her smile and she playfully punched him in the shoulder when he called her ‘special one.’ Adam had a way of making her feel better and she wondered if he did it on purpose. His next comment though made her feel a bit desperate to make him think anything else. She didn’t want to look weak or small or scared. Alex had worked hard for her take-no-shit reputation and her ex showing up was threatening that. Or maybe Adam just knew her better then she realized...

“Adam I’m fine. I don’t need any sleep. Really.”

Who was she trying to convince and reassure? Him or herself? And it was a lie; she knew she was completely exhausted. A lack of sleep was making her paranoid that Calvin was everywhere, and he wasn’t. She needed to relax and get some rest, but she didn’t want to relax. No, that wasn’t true. Lex wanted to relax and sleep better, she just physically couldn’t. With a heavy sigh, she cast her eyes down and continued to pick at her food.

“I know he can’t hurt me. I just…”

No, Alexis refused to say she was scared. It wouldn’t come down to what it used to be. She’d stand up to him this time and things would be different. He wouldn’t control her life with the fear and abuse he had before. Alex was different now, and she wasn’t going to let that happen. Alexis pushed her food away with a big sigh. She was just too tired to eat, even though the food was delicious. Stepping up from the couch, she grabbed the box and walked into the kitchen. After she placed the food in the refrigerator for later, she walked back over and sat down on the couch. Lex leaned back once more, shifting around and getting comfortable. Gaze drifted to look at Adam thoughtfully,

“I’m not afraid…”

It was then she realized how immature she sounded, like a child who told her parents she wasn’t sleepy while rubbing her eyes. If Alex wasn’t afraid, she’d be sleeping better. If she wasn’t afraid she wouldn’t be taking lessons to defend herself from him. And if Alex wasn’t afraid, she wouldn’t try to spend all of her time with other people to keep from being alone. When she was alone, she was vulnerable. But there was no way she was voicing that to him, because she knew he’d think she was pathetic. Hell, she WAS pathetic. Another sigh escaped her lips as she stood up and walked into her bedroom, rummaging through her drawers for something more comfortable to put on than jeans.

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He shook his head at Alex, knowing she was lying to him completely about not being afraid of what Calvin was capable of doing. If she wasn't afraid she would be sleeping at night and not having Eliot give her karate lessons or whatever he was giving her. Adam knew she was scared but he kept his mouth shut, deciding it wasn't wise to keep picking at her. "Lex, if you don't like staying here you know you can always stay at my place for a few days or whatever. Especially considering you can't get into the building unless you're buzzed in and the guard lets you in," he looked up at her as he finished off his dinner, putting the container in the trash. He didn't know how she was going to react to that but the offer was there for her.

When she went into her room he sighed, deciding to leave her be for a few minutes and sit on the couch. Grabbing his phone he started to play that stupid game Angry Birds, having become addicted to the game a few days ago. Sure, he could go in and try to get her to have sex with him now and not later but she was so tired he'd rather let her sleep. Since Calvin decided to come back around Adam had become more worried about Lex with her losing sleep and all. Even at work he could tell she wasn't completely there despite there being a huge amount of security around the asylum, almost as if Calvin would find a way into the place. That was impossible, really, with all of the cameras they watched day in and day out plus the guards at the front gate. If Calvin got into the Asylum right under their noses then they needed to overhaul the security system.

Sighing, he set his phone on the table and went into her bedroom with her, wrapping his arms around her waist. Resting his chin on her shoulder he tilted his head enough to look at her. "You need to sleep, Lex, worse than you think. Don't try and tell me you're ok," he spoke softly while keeping hold of her, knowing she might not enjoy it but hopefully she wouldn't get too mad at him.

[Alexis P. Redfield]

Alexis climbed out of her jeans and just looked at herself in the mirror for a minute. She looked like shit. Normally Alex took better care of her self then she had been lately but with the exhaustion settling in, all she really wanted to do was the bare minimums. Alexis stood there for a while, just staring at herself. This had to stop. Whatever needed to happen just needed to happen. If Calvin was going to kill her, he needed to just do it and let it all be over with. Lex nearly cringed at the thought, so much for being an optimist. But it was true. She was tired of running from him. She’d been running from him for years now and it had to stop.

Her thoughts were interrupted though as Adam entered the room and wrapped his arms around her. Normally the affectionate gesture would have annoyed her but she was too tired to care at this point. The only thing she was worried about was that he not think her to be a weak, pathetic, afraid little girl. So, Lex did the only thing she knew she was good at and that just so happened to be a good motivator to redirect the conversation. She turned around in his arms and kissed him. Wrapping her arms around his neck, she deepened the kiss before pulling away a little. Words came out in a soft whisper.

“I am okay Adam. Anyway, lets not talk about it anymore. I can sleep when I’m dead.”

Such a silly little thing for her to say, but she meant it. She just didn’t mention how she hoped everything would be over sooner rather then later. Alexis couldn’t keep running forever and even if she could have it would probably be useless. In a lot of ways she knew what Adam probably thought about Eliot training her- that it wouldn’t do a bit of good. She pushed closely to him, relishing the heat as she continued to kiss him- praying he wouldn’t make her stop.

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Adam just watched Alexis tell him she was ok, that she could sleep later. He knew she'd be asleep pretty quickly if they watched a movie or just chilled for a bit. Maybe he'd do his best to delay getting all horn balled up to see if she would sleep, it would crack him up if she fell asleep mid-sex though. That he would never admit to Alexis because he would probably insult her and she might get mad at him. Just the thought of it made him smirk a bit, the smirk he hid from her so she didn't ask him why he was snickering so badly. "Alright I believe you, I promise," he said but it was such a lie because he knew she wasn't ok. Calvin was bothering her, the lack of sleep was bothering her, it was affecting her at work, but he'd let her believe he wasn't going to nag at her anymore.

Her kisses were a distraction but it was a welcome one in his mind. He gladly didn't stop kissing her, rather picking her up to set her on her bed. God her bed was so comfortable, not just for sex but for sleeping in too. He pulled away just enough to place kisses on her neck, hands working their way everywhere. If she wanted to stop he would, if she fell asleep, he had no choice but to stop. Looking up at her he gave a light smirk, biting her side gently to see and hear her reaction. This was so normal for them, just having sex, then doing something else, more sex, possibly food, then some more sex. He had become so used to the routine that he almost expected it, but he still had Alexis' well being in his head. That, and the fact that this was becoming way more than just sex for him. He liked her way too much for his own good, especially considering she didn't like him what so ever. He would suffer through it and just deal with it until something happened between them or didn't happen.

[Alexis P. Redfield]

“Liar.”

She could hear it in his voice. He didn’t believe her, not for a minute. But Alexis was done trying to convince both of them she was fine, especially she was at the point of admitting she wasn’t. She scooted closer, biting her tongue in order not to tell him just that. There was no way in hell she was about to admit to anything unless he asked again. But she had a pretty good feeling that he wasn’t going to ask again now that she’d propositioned him for sex. Bah, it annoyed her she was learning him so well. Maybe it was time to step away from each other for a bit, the amount of time they were spending together was becoming chaotically familiar to what most would refer to as a relationship. Alex didn’t do those, not with Adam, not with anyone. At least she knew he wasn’t in it for a relationship, so that helped her to not freak out so much when she thought about it.

When he sat her on the bed though she couldn’t do anything but pull him closer, planting tiny little kisses wherever she could get them. Part of her didn’t want their wild and addicting life style to stop because she was afraid that if he weren’t around something really bad would happen with Calvin, but the other part of her was sending warning bells off- trying to make her put some distance between them before one of them started to get to attached to this situation. Hell, Alexis hadn’t been sleeping with anyone but Adam since they’d started this escapade of theirs- and for Alexis that rarely ever happened.

“Adam-“

She started, about to tell him everything going on in her head. They might as well talk about it and be honest, and part of her wanted to talk to him about Calvin, because she trusted him. But then she remembered the cold hard facts of their ‘relationship’. He was here for this, for the sex. That’s what all of this was about, its what it was always about. He didn’t want to talk to her or make her feel better. So they hung out a lot, so what, nearly every time they were around each other it resulted in sex. Every one she’d ever known and had any relationship with, be it friend wise or whatever, had always turned into something superficial. No that wasn’t true, it started out that way, it didn’t turn into that. Alex suddenly dropped her head onto his shoulder, burrowing her face in his neck and wrapping her arms around him. She tried to hold back the sob that threatened to rip from her chest, biting her bottom lip and squinting her eyes shut tightly so the tears wouldn’t start to fall. What was she even about to cry over? That he wanted to have sex with her? She’d started it! It was then she realized how exhausted she was and how little control she had over her emotions and thought process. For that moment though, she didn’t care. She just clung to him tighter so we wouldn’t be able to pull her back and easily see her face, ignoring the alarms going off in her head.

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Adam was so used to coming over and everything eventually leading to sex it had become a routine. Alex was the one who tended to initialize it all so he didn't protest. He was a form of a sex addict, what could he say or do other than to oblige to her wishes? Of course, there was the word no but Adam was a guy, he had something dangling between his legs and he thought with it sometimes. Typical boy. She said his name and he stopped for a second, not knowing what she wanted to say or do but when she didn't say anything he went back to kissing her neck. It was when she buried her face into his neck that he knew something wasn't right. "Hey," he said softly, wrapping his arms around her while rubbing her back. Whatever was bothering her he could deal with it, he wasn't a giant douche who would force her to shut up and put out.

"What's the matter, baby?" he spoke softly again, not really catching himself before saying 'baby'. Oh well, so he had said it, whatever came of it was going to have to be dealt with. He sat down and pulled her into his lap, just wanting her to feel better. Of course this thing with Calvin probably wasn't helping anything, and then she was so tired that her emotions were going to get the best of her. Oh girls and their emotions, they were so silly but it was so daned adorable. Adam wasn't going to push her away, not when she was so upset about whatever was on her mind. Instead, he held onto her while rubbing her arm softly and letting her cry if she wanted to or punch him. Ok, maybe not the whole punching thing but he would let her get away with almost anything. "What's on your mind? Don't hold it in, I wanna hear it."

Taking a deep breath he leaned back against the headboard, wondering if Alexis would actually talk to him about whatever was on her mind. It seemed she avoided any kind of intimacy that didn't involve sexing one another or talking about life problems. He thought of her as his friend and he hoped she would at least try to talk to him. If they never talked about what was bothering them then their friendship wouldn't go anywhere farther than what it was at that very moment.

[Alexis P. Redfield]

She was shaking now, and the moment she heard his voice- she nearly crumbled. Of all the things she expected him to do, wrapping his arms around her and rubbing her back comfortingly was not one of them. She allowed him to pull her into his lap, even though it made her feel vulnerable and stupid for being so emotional. If she hadn’t been so distraught already, she would have noticed him call her baby, but as it was she just noticed him speaking. He wanted to know what was wrong, or pretended to want to know at least. For some reason, she couldn’t find the will to speak. She wanted to shout, yell, scream, cry a million different things and all of them contradicted one another. Man she really hated being a girl sometimes.

“I…I don’t know where to start.”

When she spoke, her voice started to crack and she felt the unfamiliar sensation of an annoying wet tear as it rolled down her cheek. Dammit to hell, Alexis didn’t cry. She was learning how to fight, she rock climbed, she drove a jeep, she tackled patients 3 times her size, and she drank more then most men could handle. Alexis groaned and burrowed her head back in his neck, clinging to him tighter then she meant to. There was something seriously wrong with her.

“Calvin. You. Work. My mom.”

Okay so that was a vague answer and she knew it. So let him pick a topic and if she felt like talking about it, she would. Right now though, she was in the position that she’d do just about anything if he asked. Alex frowned and pulled her head back off his shoulder, looking down at his chest. Sex, that’s what she was suppose to be doing. That’s what he was here for. Adam wasn’t her shrink. He wasn’t here to have conversations with her, though he did because he was just nice. Alexis wasn’t dumb on any accounts, she knew he didn’t care about any of this stuff. Having sex was something she was good at. It was what she was suppose to do. When she spoke again her voice was flat and obviously distraught over something, her body shaking as she swallowed down the sob that had worked its way up into her throat.

“We can just have sex if you want.”

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Calvin was an obvious problem because he was her psychotic stalker ex boyfriend who didn't know what 'leave me alone' meant. But Adam was on her mind? He almost asked her to talk about what she was thinking about when it came to him but he kept his mouth shut, instead asking something else. "What about your mom? I know Calvin's a giant douche cake. I don't know why I would be on your mind because I don't think I'm really worth the time," he shook his head, kissing her forehead before gently wiping the tear from her cheek. It was almost heart breaking to see her this upset but he knew it was more fueled by her being so tired rather than anything else. Adam wouldn't admit that he was actually kind of excited for her to be thinking about him but then thinking about it all, she could be thinking about ditching him or something.

At her suggestion of having sex he raised his eyebrows, shaking his head. "Lex, do you really think all I care about is sex? Yeah, we have amazing sex but I am actually worried about you. I want to be a friend, not just a fuck buddy," he shook his head as he spoke, looking down at her. Just the look on his face and in his eyes could give away exactly how he felt, but there was honest worry written all over his face. "I don't care about the sex. I'd rather talk and let you vent out your frustrations or what not and help you feel better." He shook his head lightly while holding onto her, gently brushing his fingers across her cheek to remove the tears that had worked their way onto her cheeks. God even crying she was so beautiful and despite her being upset, her found her so adorable. It sucked falling for someone who would never fall for you. And it sucked ever worse when he realized that she thought all he wanted was sex.

"If all I wanted was sex, my dear, I wouldn't have suggested that we just hang out and I wouldn't be over here so much. I have t give my little buddy a break every once in awhile," he chuckled, shaking his head and pulled her to him tightly. If it helped her feel better he would hold onto her for as long as she wanted. If Alexis suddenly snapped out of her being a girl and she wanted to get away from Adam, than he would back off and let her go. Hopefully she didn't do that and she realized he was actually concerned for her and being the guy he wanted her to know.

[Alexis P. Redfield]

She bit her lip hard, trying to fight back the tears that threatened to spill out. Unfortunately a few of them began to cascade down her cheeks and she had to stop herself from reaching up and pulling her own hair out in distress. What the hell was wrong with her? She was breaking down again! Another set of tears fell down her cheeks and this time there was no holding back the sob that shook her entire body, voice shaky as if she had to say each word with intense purpose.

“I miss my mom. She moved to Minnesota about four…maybe five years ago and I haven’t seen her since. She moved in with my aunt and I went away to college because Calvin wouldn’t…he threatened to-“

He’d threatened to kill her mother if she didn’t do what he wanted. Alexis frowned, every that she thought about her mother and wondered if she was safe or not. They talked every now and then but sometimes a week would pass before they spoke. Part of her always dreaded that one day she’d get a knock on her door from the police saying something had happened to her mother. Nightmares about it kept her up some nights. Suddenly her thoughts were interrupted as Adam began to speak again, telling her that he wanted to be a friend and not just a fuck buddy. Part of her didn’t dare hope that he was telling the truth because she was so used to being used. But there was something in his eyes, something about the way he was looking at her that made her feel like he was telling the truth. She smiled a little at his attempt of humor- not because she found it funny but because the crude humor was so out of place in the situation. When he pulled her tightly to him, she let out a deep sigh and tried to calm down- resting her head against him. When she spoke again, there were no tears but there also wasn’t any mistaking the fear in her voice.

“Calvin is going to kill me. He’s never going to let me go.”

She wanted to tell Adam everything. She wanted to tell him about how her dad walked out on them, about how at sixteen she’d got into one of the most physical and psychological abusing relationships she’d ever seen in her life, about how scared she was with everything going on in her life, how confused and tired she felt all of the time. And that scared the hell out of her. It terrified her that she wanted to tell him anything about her personal life, let alone all the major stuff. Lex snuggled into him a little bit more trying to get comfortable- before realizing what she was doing and froze, body going rigid and still.

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